I am not a religious person. I was born into a Catholic family and raised to be Catholic. At some point in my life. I stopped believing and just went on living.  I have my beef with God which I will talk about. My disagreement with God goes back decades. It is a long time to hold a grudge, but I still am conflicted as to what I should do. We are taught that God is a powerful being, the one and only deity. For he makes all the calls, he has our lives planned out for us. We can get into the idea of free will but that is a whole other topic that doesn’t fit into this.