This is something I have struggled with. I need to come to terms with who I really am. I cannot keep living a lie and pretend to be someone I am not. I need to be happy with myself and to keep living a lie, I will never accomplish that. I cannot pretend to be someone I am not. Be true with yourself and you’ll find that things will improve, you will be happy and never feel like you’re carrying a burden anymore. I just fear that telling you this, you will stop talking to me and chastise me for lying and hiding this from you all the years you’ve known me…
We all have secrets. I have kept this one all my adult life. I’ve known this for many years. I found out when I was in high school. I just never told anyone because I knew they would hate me and my family, my mother mainly, would disapprove, and disown me. I don’t know if telling you this will make you think of me otherwise. Will you hate me? Will you stop talking to me? I don’t know. I don’t think it changes me the slightest. I am still the same person, just with different views and a different lifestyle. I don’t want to be exiled or treated differently because of it. I want you to still like me for me and not judge me for the person I am. It isn’t something I chose, it’s something I was born with. Is it nature versus nurture? I don’t know but what I do know is, this is who I am. While my decision to come out with this will be a shock to some and to others, it was expected, but either way, I am still the same person you always knew. I am sorry if I led you on and sorry to those I hurt along the way. I cannot keep this in any longer. I need to come clean and tell you the person I really am. It is time I came out…